Lost in Thoughts

Oh geez... The bad thoughts are flowing in my head again.

I started listening to Monstercat again. By the way, Monstercat is awesome! I decided to Google them. They're a Canadian independent EDM record label that helps artists get their music out there. I started looking through all the artists that have had their music put up by Monstercat and there are 90s people! @_@ There's a guy born in 1995 and I'm like... Man, there are all these people younger than me in this world making a name for themselves. The girl from Melbourne Knowledge Week was a few months older than me but already been selected to be Australian of the Year 2012. Bill Gates and Steve Jobs was already working on their first computers at this age. Mark is only a few years older than me and his net worth is in the billions... These EDM artists started with nothing but a passion for music. They only worked with that they had when they were little and look how far they have come to be just because they're driven by what they are passionate about. Here I am, traveling in Australia in search of what I really want to do with my life. Looking at my resume, it's stuff from all over the place; Human Resource, Systems Specialist, Bachelor of Business in Accounting & Information Systems, expertise in Adobe Photoshop & Illustrator, barista course taught by David Seng, speaks English, Cantonese and Mandarin. What is it that I can make out of this? Business, Art, IT, Accounting, Customer Service, Coffee, Language. I play League of Legends whenever I have the opportunity to do so. I get into little anger fits with my housemates because of little things. Other times, I'm hitting F5 on Facebook or browsing through Reddit for some fun stuff to read on /r/AskReddit. After work, I come home, take a nap, slack off a little bit, and cook a nice dinner for myself.

Today, I cleaned up the whole apartment and headed off to the library. I applied for a Sales Consultant position for the Samsung store in Melbourne Central, but they already got back to me that they don't want me ahahah... Then I started reading the Monstercat thing and now I'm here on Blogspot again.

I don't want to be famous. I just want to make a name for myself. It's like, I want to be someone that others can say, wow, Henry is pretty awesome. I want to do something like what he's doing when I have the ability to do so! I'm not satisfied with a just okay life. I want to do more with my life. If I stayed at home, keep my job, buy a house, find a girl, start a family, and live a normal moderate life like my mom wanted me to do, I would definitely 100% regret my life. Is it because our generation want more than just having a normal life? I think it is because we grew up with all these rising young entrepreneurs that makes us want to achieve more in life. Today, not only old people are successfully wealthy. Back in my mom's generation, they immigrated to USA just so we can have a better life. They go to work everyday hoping to save up money so we can live a comfortable life. I can't do that. I don't want to do that.

I think I'm on the right track though. The first step to improving is to get out of my comfort zone. I'm in Australia now. Not that many people can just leave everything behind, pack a small backpack (according to some people because they think 48L backpack is wicked small), and go to a country where they don't know anything or any people. I need to keep pushing myself further out of the boundary zone. I need to walk on the edge of the cliff. I need to take risks with no regrets.

Before college, I didn't really achieve anything. I really feel like luck has been playing on my side all along though. I landed my summer program with the University of Hong Kong in 2012. I landed a job like I wanted 3 months out of college. I met Tran in Australia which led me to getting the current housekeeping job so I can earn some money for my travels. The only thing missing is to discover what I really want to do... I'd like to think it's never too late but I'm getting to my 30's soon and I feel like I'm still acting like a little child being lazy and getting no where. @_@;

Come on, Henry... You can do it! 2016 is the year!